3rd Time a Charm??

So, I know I have been quiet on the baby-front for the last few months, and I have a very valid reason. We found out May 20th that we were pregnant with our 3rd little bean! It has been a roller coaster of a few months.

I had to have my beta levels drawn and got the first results back on the 20th - which were good. The second ones didn't double. So, needless to say we were worried sick for two days. However, the 3rd betas came back really good! I had my first ultrasound at 6 weeks, and we saw a little flicker of a heart. Then, we up and moved....

I got established at a new doctor (which you know), and also had another ultrasound at 7 weeks and heartrate of 130bpm. All was looking good (although, all of my doctors up to this point were less than enthuisiastic). A few days later, I had some spotting... and more fear set in. I went into the doctor and had another ultrasound at 7 weeks 6 days and baby was measuring right on and heart still a-fluttering away at 144 bpm. Then they told me that my next appt would be at 12 weeks! AHHHH! 4 whole weeks in between. I did call them quite a few times because of more spotting. And I finally called my old doctor and the nurse gave me some reassuring answers. I am on progesterone suppositories, and she thought that that could be causing the spotting.

So - up until yesterday, we had kind of been holding our breath. We had told our parents and siblings, and those people who out-right asked us (afterall, I can't lie!). Earlier this week I had some actual bleeding, and fell apart on Tuesday. I really thought it was the beginning of the end. However, I had ordered a doppler that arrived on Wednesday, and I found that beautiful sound that melts any mommy's heart - 159bpm!!! Of course, later that night, I couldn't find it when Matt wanted me to, but I found it the next morning.

So - back to yesterday. My mom came down to go with me. If you remember - this was the scan where we found out that so much was wrong with our Peanut. So, I was petrified. Although, I had a lot of coversations with God, and going into the scan, while I was still scared, I realized I wasn't as nervous as I was before Peanut's appointment. Mother's Intuition? I first had my physical with a new doctor and really loved him. He explained every little thing, which was nice. We found the source of my bleeding and I go in in 2 weeks to have that taken care of. Although - it is all fine, no worry for me or the baby. And then we headed downstairs for the scan.

The moment I saw that little one, my heart melted. And I also knew that she/he did not have excess fluid. I have stared at Peanut's picture so many times, that I know what it looks like... and baby's measurements were perfect. NT was 1.3 - and anything under 3 is fine! So, we are well below. They found the little nasal bone too. And then she showed us all the various parts - the heart, the little fingers, each little part of the arm and the legs. I got to stare at our baby for a good 20 minutes. It was amazing. The only thing better would have been to have Matt there, but my mom video taped it for him! So - from the words of the tech "All looks perfect so far.." So, for a while now, I can breathe again. I know I will be nervous again around the 20 week ultrasound, but for now, I really really want to enjoy this!! So, I am trying. We get the blood results back in 7-10 days, so I am praying that those continue to be good news.

And I really think that baby (who we are calling Walter - for some unknown reason!) wants me to relax. Afterall, Walter was just laying there, with his/her little feet crossed at the ankles and legs in the air - like they were swinging in a hammock... so nice and relaxed. Just working on growing all the right parts and pieces in all the right places.

So - I am signing off as one happy girl! I will upload some pics once I can get them cropped.

Fingers crossed that this is actually our turn - finally!!!